Unobstructed Views

I have never bought a CD the same day it was released. It's usually on an "I'll get around to it" basis. Death Cab's new CD "Codes and Keys" came out today. I bought it on my lunch hour. I have not listened to the whole thing yet, because I cannot stop listening to this one song.

There's no eye in the sky
Just our love
No unobstructed views, no perfect truths
Just our love
And there's no verse, no monument of words
For my love
For they can't hold all I know
About my love
Storm clouds break
Pools remain
Memories flood
Earthen graves
Evaporate
To up above
Where they become
New love

It is so clear. So calm. It is like a perfect escalation to the climax. And then it is over. I love it.
I had an amazing conversation today and I left it feeling such a desire to carve out for myself (with God's help, don't get me wrong) everything that I want my life to be. I don't really want my life to be what other people want it to be so much.
The best advice I ever got? Stop taking advice.
And especially don't listen to people who only want to compare their situation to yours and tell you why you're just like them.
Only you're not. You're you. And while I do not believe that there are "no perfect truths" I do believe that there are "No unobstructed views". Because the fact that we're the viewer is an obstruction. We see the world through our own lenses, our own perceptions and experiences. There is no escaping that. All of our views are obstructed to some degree. The world is more complicated than we want it to be. Which uncomplicates things... somehow, "It's not hard to grow when you know that you just don't know."
For now... I'm just me. Please be gentle to me. I'll figure it out some day.... then I'll probably die the next day, which is all just as well.

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